AngelsLady911's Blog
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11/4/07 3 CommentsWhat I have so far
Fresh air is definitely here.
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11/2/07 2 CommentsNovember life part II
There is some good news in the future though but I shall save that news until I know for sure. Suffice it to say that I am stepping up when it comes to being a grown woman and I could be getting help and more importantly, a friend to talk to. I have been sheltered too long. I only hope I do not do the same to the child I might have in the future. And as a child, I was eager to do what it took to keep my friends, even if it meant giving away my toys and clothes. I know that was wrong of me to do because if they really were my friends, they wouldn't of taken anything of mine away, even if I was willing and misguided by desperation. I guess there are times when I try to give away something I love even now. Why do I do this on occasion? Well, when I was little, I was scared of being alone, no one liking me, but as an adult, I do know I let go for the wrong reasons, because I was scared to say Yes, I am worth trying this, my life is worth seeing this throuogh and I won't be scared to try anymore. Of course when I was little, my friends loved getting things. When they got too much , they expected too much from and ended up broken when I had no more to give them. Did my friends appreciate what I gave them? Since I have lost touch with them, I will never know that answer. What I do know is that I have a right to keep what I cherish. And I cherish being a woman in progress and I like the fact I have so much to try in my life, not just hobbies but seeing the world, living my life in balance by expressing my femininity while not being afraid of 'getting my hands dirty' when helping others. Letting some things come on their own and becoming a woman with the right ambition when it is time. I cherish happiness, love, friendship, and compassion as well. Oh yeah, I am in love with the Nickelback song Far Away; it's on my myspace =)
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11/1/07 3 CommentsNovember Life
I really think we will be okay but it is hard to believe that it is November already. Thanksgiving is on its way and Christmas is on its heels, like a race to bring joy. I still have high hopes and dreams that I refuse to let go of, I might rework them so that they take on a different light but I refuse to forget them. I really am thankful for those who have opened up and I hope people on this site continue to open up and be the best 'them' they can be. xoxox
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10/30/07 3 CommentsHere I go takes breath
So far I am learning about what it takes to be a writer and I think I am being tested as I write. Today I learned that that job prospect is no good anymore, that lady i talked to already hired everybody she needed yesterday. I would have gotten hired no problem if I was given a 100% and a release from the doctor. It is very clear that some things I go through are just stepping stones. There is something better waiting for me in two weeks after I get done with the doctor and it would do no good to apply for anything until then so now I write. What inspires me? Hmm let's see, hmmm. =) How about Criss? I have the strangest feeling. How would anybody feel about this. You love Mindfreak but is it really that big of a deal to miss an eppie on ocassion? That's how it has been with me, of course I have bigger things on my mind right now. Does this mean I don't care? I think it just means I have a lot on my mind and I know what shows I miss will be on again. Hello, reruns, DVD? Any of this familar? lol Although right now, I can't afford dvds, maybe later but not now. And of course the goal of every loyal is to meet him, this could also be a sign that just seeing him on TV is not enough and that goal of meeting him in person is on its way and I will be ok, you know? I won't embarass myself, or faint or any other fear that we think will happen when we meet him. He would not want us to be scared of him. He is an artist, and an all around great guy, the kind of guy you could talk to and learn about what bothers you and know that things will turn out alright in the end. He 's the kind who would be a great counselor or teacher and show patience; but first we have to show that we are patient with ourselves. We go in to meet him with the 'this is who we are, take it or leave it' mentality. The trick is, pardon the pun, is to be the best versions of who we are. I am sure that many of Loyals who met him already have no doubt come on strong, overwhelming by being too bold. You want to know the boldest thing we can do once we meet him? Ask if we can give him a hug and kiss and give him a gift from the heart, whether it is a scrapbook, painting, or a short speech about how he changed your life or helped you overcome fear. That is, to me, the boldest, most beautiful form of magic that we can share with Criss. Let's go share the magic Loyals. Always Connected. LLF
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10/29/07 2 CommentsNot over yet
If it isn't one thing it is another.
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I adore roses. And I think astronomy is the coolest subject in the world, and I would consider it a dream come true to have my own telescope one day. I took 3 years of German in high school but I have not used it since and I would love to take some language classes in German, Greek, Finnish and ASL. I have one older brother who is hearing impaired and he loves the martial arts. I also had a bout with depression in high school and I tried to commit suicide three times. I am not proud of it but I have learned that it's no good to hurt yourself just to achieve society's idea of perfection. I still struggle with my body image at times but even supermodels go through that. I am a fan of 80's stuff with Knight Rider, ThunderCats, and She-Ra being my favorites. So here I am forming my own sense of self and others. I am the type of person who knows a girl can be both feminine and a rock chick and in saying that I would love to learn to play guitar and get a degree in cosmetology. I am not a big sports fanatic and I do like my quiet time. I am drawn to people who are different and are comfortable to be individuals. I know I am an unconditional friend and loyal to the core. I can also be too honest for my own good; I would have never made a good lawyer, politician or illusionist although I think the latter does the best in the fine art of B.S.ing!! The secrets I'm good at keeping are those that are not mine (back to the too honest thing) I can be a perfectionist sometimes, carefree at other times. I feel like I belong here thanks hugely to Criss and my fellow Loyals (and Metallica Freaks) I think I'm going to fit in well here. =))
Just for fun, my favorite bands include Metallica, Godsmack, Disturbed, HIM, MCR, AFI, 3 Doors Down, Def Leppard, DIO, Journey, America, and Criss' music! Anyways, if you're interested in me as a friend then I can be found at www.myspace.com/villesfeminineside or at
www.myspace.com/lovelivesforever (my Criss fanpage)
Because I LOVE roses!!
Because I love this profile:
Because I admire his parents:
And just because I adore HIM and Ville Valo........
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